Day 20/66

This morning I had a tricky therapy session that left me feeling emotionally drained. I just couldn’t snap out of the feeling.

I worked, I had a nap, I drank coffee. Nothing touched it.

I had some lunch and found myself returning to the fridge looking for something I could mindlessly eat, but I caught myself. I wasn’t looking to eat for hunger but for comfort and for the first time in my adult life I recognised this and made the choice not to.

I sat with my feelings for a while and then I did my sun salutations – just two rounds. Shortly afterwards I decided to head out for a 5Km run. My pace was faster than normal so I had to take a few walking breaks as I am not quite able to keep up that pace the whole route. I finished in 31:31. It felt good to get a physical release, to clear my head and to just sweat it out. 

Exercise really is key for me. 

Then a bit later I went to yoga. It was a Bikram class and I haven’t done so many of those recently. It was interesting to see how the daily sun salutations are changing my practice. I just felt very capable, like it was easier than normal. Tough, but in a good way. 

It makes me want to do more yoga, and more running. I think this is a pivotal point.