In January, when I was participating in the Run Every Day challenge for @mindcharity I found myself in this hotel gym with a ghastly oblique side-view mirror-treadmill combo. The repulsion I felt towards myself as I saw myself jiggling away, red and sweaty made me feel so much self-loathing. I utterly hated my body.
I found myself in the same hotel last night, on the same treadmill with the same mirror. In the SAME body. Initially I felt shit about myself again, but then I just thought ‘FUCK IT!’. So much so that I took a Boomerang and posted it on social media.
Just like a lightbulb turning on, I had a EUREKA moment. 💡💡💡💡💡💡💡💡
My body isn’t perfect, it jiggles, I am not a supermodel. BUT my body is SUPER! I ran everyday in January, I have run 13 medal-winning races this year so far, I have done one yoga class every other day this year so far (on average), I have run the London Marathon, I have climbed Mt Kilimanjaro, I crossed Scotland Coast-to-Coast by foot, bike and kayak whilst dressed as Bat Woman. Yet all this time I have HATED my body.
So this is the thing…..
MY WEIGHT ISN’T THE PROBLEM.
I have been nearly 4 stone lighter as an adult and I still hated my body then, I still thought I was fat. I’ve spent all my adolescence and adult life telling my body I hate it and that I am fat and disgusting. Well it isn’t ever going to change under these conditions. If I don’t change how I feel and see my body then no matter what weight I am I will never be satisfied with how I look. I have to change the psychology of how I see myself.
This may seem so obvious to many people but to me it’s a revelation. Seriously; this is going to change everything.
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